i feel like.. posting pictures.
(:

CNY VISITING WITH TUITION BUDDIES (:

















the whole visiting thing was hilarious,
and it was nice catching up with sunshine playground buddies (((:
sweeney todd was not baddddd.



CG 16/08; FIRST INTAKE











































PAE CG 16/08 rocked, yo!
even though there were the customary weirdos,
it wasnt so bad, in the end. (:
having 16 guys and 9 girls in the class also wasnt that bad.

and thank you 16/08 for the lovely birthday card,
and the nice banana cake baked by baohui ((((:

I'LL MISS EVERYONE WHO LEFT!

):

okay, more about the recent events.

if you didnt know,
i got posted to Temasek Poly under the leisure and resort management course!
which isnt that bad actually.

other than the fact that it is poly
and that it was my seventh choice.

and why did everyone looked so stunned when i told them i got into TP!
i was actually quite excited.

oh and the next day was so awful.
felt like crap the whole day and i didnt even have the mood to go crash TJ.

so in the end i went to TP to meet leung
and i got so high cos TP's so cool!

then we went to tm for lunch and sat there for godknowshowlong
talking about random crap that made us laugh like hell!

annd we were so jumpy everytime our phone vibrated!

but i wasnt really scared until vicki, baohui and gino told me they got the calls from TJ.
THEN, i really started panicking.

those fifteen minutes of staring at my phone and tearing randomly reallyyyyyyy sucked okay. ):

but anyhows, i made it.
thank god.

i like TJCSB.

:D

i hate the thought of tomorrow.

it's so weird how the thought of spectacularlyboringdays such as tomorrow reminds me of oh so much.

like how two years back at this time i was chatting so happily with someone who's barely more than a hi/bye friend now.and how she dedicated a blogpost to me at the stroke of midnight which made my day.and how, at that point of time i had the best time of my life.

and then the next day, which is two years ago from the day after tomorrow, everything came crashing down in a few confusing moments.

and my perfect six weeks disappeared like that.

i remember plunging into depression.
and i remember how alone i felt.
and i remember the unending tears.

and so the thought of tomorrow terrifies me.

i dont know why i'm spilling my insecurities to an invisible audience.
but who cares.

i'd skip school tomorrow if only there wasnt band.

bah humbug.

somehow

i wish you were here to let me cry to,
to chide me out of this state of doom and gloom,
to tell me i'm so much better than what i think i am.

but you shouldnt care
and you know it too.
so go away, and let me be.
stop tempting me to respond to you

that's only going to give me reason to walk away from you again.
because essentially,
I DONT CARE.

because i only have enough will to care for one.
it's too tiring.

somehow
somehow
somehow

i realise i cant smile properly anymore.