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Sunday, July 29, 2007

"It's one of those days when all your debts have caught up with you, and there's no way you can repay them, because you've done too little, and it's way too late. Too late for repentance, or forgiveness, or hope, or humbled sorrys. Too late for rectification of mistakes. Too late to revisit the past, because that's just what it is; the past. Perhaps it formed a precedent for today, but long gone are they, because all you can do now is revisit them in your head and believe (with all your heart) that they hold meaning for you and still mean something (anything, really) for the rest involved. And what's left is the acrid taste of bitterness and a strange mix of anger (toward's one's self), (self)resentment, (self)hurt, (self-induced)pain, and the self-destructive power of a sad voice called regret; you're too late, too late, too late."

it's exactly one of those days,
when i regret every single thing i said,
every last thing i did,
every moronic thought i had that this would be for the better.

ENOUGH.


10:33 AM

Saturday, July 28, 2007

"People always disappoint. It's human nature, after all. The truth is that not all promises are kept, not all secrets remain secrets, and not all commitments stay commitments.

It's like lending someone something; you have to be prepared to lose it. In this case, you give someone a piece of your heart, so the lesson in that is to expect - and not to be surprised when - you lose that bit, or someone accidentally (or not accidentally) crushes it. You've still got the rest. Focus on it. You've done what you could. You've put it all in, so enough. Stop trying. Stop crying over spilt milk, or getting all huffed up about something that no longer involves you. Yes, it doesn't involve you anymore. It doesn't, so stop the denial and get over it. Your life could be so much better."
stolen, again, from thoughtexodus.

i AM going to get a grip.
and i need cottonwool therapy again!

bestfriend, i miss you!
):

6:20 PM

Friday, July 27, 2007

yes, i blame every fucking thing on the weather.
so sue me!

and i guess this is it.
so long, goodbye, farewell!
isnt this what i've always wanted?

ugh.

anyhows. study date at the airport was pretty productive.
again again!

:D

SCREW YOU, for making me feel like this!

11:13 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

what's wrong with the weather!
it was really ccccccoldddddddddd.

gah.

had fun with my knee jerk reaction today!
LMAO.

came home really early today!
like, it's the first time in goodnessknowshowlong that i've been home in time to watch the ellendegeneres show. :D

nice.

BUT. i slacked all my time away.
yea.

):

whatever, i've no motivation.
none at all.

i'll be by your side, you know i'll take your hand.
when it gets cold, and it feels like the end.
there's no place to go, you know i won't give in.

9:35 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007

the weather's too cold.
but now it's comfortably cooling.
(:

HEY YOU.
if you read this,
i'm really glad i made that phonecall.
(:
you're missed!

10:28 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007

I am worth exactly $1,604,212!

that's not alot is it.

ohwell!
I'M DONE WITH HARRY POTTER!
i love the ending. ((:
i think this is my favourite book!
although a good threequarters of the book was OHSODEPRESSING.
but still. ((:

fireworks study date was ytd.
i love the esplanade library!
shall go back there again!!
and we could watch the whole parade from where we were standing!
though the view wasnt that great.
fireworks are PRETTY!
(:

accomplished nothing this weekend,
EXCEPT FOR FINISHING THE WHOLE OF HARRY POTTER.!
(:

dums!

9:06 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007

week four, GONE.

jojo'll be back soon.
):
gah.

i liked the free periods.

and ss intensive was kindaaaa scary today.
everytime the class gets all quiet and studious,
it's quite,
freaky.

but i guess it's good.
(:

TJ talk was quite crappish.
didnt listen much.
still the same old loke-yeo eh.
and it's fun sitting with the douys and the alyssa and the melanie channnnnn.
:D

i cannot wait for harry potter. ((:
but there's tuition in the morning!!
):
and fireworks at night.
i guess SUNDAY will be harry potter day then!
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
i will not think about the future.
nuh uhh.

10:22 PM

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

dont stop chasing my cold away.

if i could, i'd hold on and never let go.

10:02 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

i excused everything i said,
and all my cruelty in the name of self-preservation.

but now it's back to bite me in the ass.

FUCK YOU, KARMA.

9:45 PM


i need to get my momentum backkkkkkkkkk.

):

like, DAMN.

8:35 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i really feel as if i dont know how time's working anymore!
i dont quite feel the days pass.

well, if you get what i mean.

today, was a irrevocably BAD DAY.
):
i have TEN WHOLE REASONS.

but okay, i got a violin for rest&relax in the end.
and yeoyeo was impressed by how i managed to procure a violin in the end!
hawhawhaw.
which reminds me,
SHE WANTS MY SCORE.
):

okayyyyy.
oh,
band fiesta was pretty good.
botanic garden's a LOVELY place.
i'll make it a point to go back there one day,
and lie on the grass patch staring into the clouds.
one day i will,
before time runs out.

11:04 PM

Sunday, July 8, 2007

oh i feel so much better now. (:
the weather has been lovely, i hope it persists.

so, went back to string on friday with vicki
and yea. they were not bad, honestly.
and yeoyeo made me scared for a while there!
oh, and i'm worried for rest&relax, cos i havent played holberg's in three thousand years.
i suppose this time, it's really my last performance.
oh.

POSITIVE IN, NEGATIVE OUT!

i'm fighting the future!

fishies have more fun,
so come on!
BLURB WITH ME!
:D

12:28 PM

Saturday, July 7, 2007

you know.
optimism's really just desperation in pretty wrapping.

uhhuh.

3:36 PM

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

oh i'll blog happy things. (:

so went out with SHIRLEEN LOWWWWWWW ytd.
like, FINALLY.! :D
hiked up that stupid hill in the scorching heat at 11plus in the morning.
that's TORTURE, REALLY.
haha.
stupid climate.
thank you for the pretty bag with the extract of eineklienenatchmusik printed on it! and the shirt too. ((((((((:
walked to the mrt station under the stupid assholic sun.
oh oh OH!
and then we're at the super ulu path to the station and there were these GANGSTERS.
OMG IT WAS SCARY OKAY!
lmao.
there were these two guys with hugeeee tattoos all over their back.
and we got so freaked out!
that silly said
maybe they're having some initiation thingy!
like, climb five trees and you're in!
omggggg. we started laughing like mad asses in the middle of the road.
we walked the ulu path past the freaky gangsters!
lolllllllll
and we survived!
ohho.
((:
and then we went to raffles city!
walked around aimlessly,
saw the doughnut shop!
the queue's really crazy.
and one day we shall queue up for the silly doughnuts!
yay!
had lunch at marina square
and i met qingy! and the other sailors.
oh and then we went to town!
didnt really do much there,
and we went back to her house!
okay,
it was nice meeting up again. :D

now i feel guilty cos i havent seen fel in elephant years,
and i think she's going back alr.

D:

nvm, there's always next time.

POSITIVE IN, NEGATIVE OUT!

YES MELLY, WE SHALL MEET UP
COS I MISS YOU TOO.
:D

and that elizabethhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
havent seen her since......
i dont know.

i miss the lower sec days,
despite it being farrrrrrrrr from perfect.
it was just, easier.

i cant miss what i never had right?

uhhuhhhhh.

i dont wanna be just another person who walked in,
and out of your life.
*stifles sigh*

6:40 PM