yesterday was triplet day! :DDDDD
they came to my house in the end to watch movies!
after our long loonnngggg discussions, we stuck to one of the original plans.
dumb right!
lol.
anw,
we had home cooked spaghetti for lunch
and noooooo,
we didnt burn the kitchen down! YAY.
do bear in mind, the leung and i are non home ed students!
haah.
lunch was yummy yummy anyway! ((:

then we watched the epic movie.
ha. so we found out why it's nc16.
covered our eyes and screamed out loud a few times
LOL.
we couldnt get drunk on jolly shandy!
(DUH.)
lololololol.

then we camwhored on the rooftop!
HAHA.
i love the self timer.

(just picked up a phone call from laura's friend.
i wonder why they all sound so sickly!
hmmmm.)

one of our succesful jump shots! :D
i like shadows!
the jolly shandy we couldnt get drunk on!
I LOVE MY TRIPLETS, I DO. <33333333333

and we've recess date tmr! yay!
:D

TODAY.
met leung for the the third day in a row.
haha. studied environmental chem at pp macs.
saw plenty of people.
hoho.
then i had my mini earring shopping spree.
MORE MORE! (:

and ah.
people got imaginary friends,
you go and get yourself an imaginary baby.
TSK.

lol.
i still love you still laaaaaaaaa! (:

BACK TO SCHOOL TMR.
(groaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan)

and i've to rush home to change for vj+random ppl from tk concert after tuition tmr.
*grumps*

ehhhhh peiqi's blog is too funnyyyyyy.

anw mcdonalds are selling this cute shrek hairband for only 2 bucks! its so green and cute. me and leung were saying what if we managed to convince the WHOLE school to wear it to school one morning. and when the prefects ask us to take it off cause its not black, we will start screaming "but i wanna be shrek! i wanna be shrek!" then sit on the floor and start throwing tantrums like a little kid. HAHAHAH. imagine the whole school sitting on the floor and screaming "i wanna be shrek!". and hey! the hairband matches our uniform. hohoho.

ROFLMAO
X)

i'm still awfully high now.
pictures!

my sis wants to be shrek!
so does the big bear sitting on my bed!

and obviously, my alter ego, LYNETTE!
meet my happy board. :D

*hums happy tune*

i've finally gotten my SHREK EARS.
I'M WEARING IT EVERYWHERE NOW
I FEEL SO GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
:DDD

I LOVE BEING HAPPY.

AND WHEN I'M HAPPY,
I DO ANNOYING THINGS LIKE TYPE IN CAPS ALL THE TIME.

PARDON ME. ((:
(IF NOT, YOU COULD JUST GO AWAY AND EMO IN YOUR LITTLE CORNER! (:
COME BACK AGAIN WHEN I START EMOING! )

SO,
STUDY DATE WITH THE LEEEEEEUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNG!
DID MCQ FOR CHEM!
LOLOLOL
AND SELF TAUGHT MYSELF 2 SUBUNITS OF INTEGRATION
:D
LIKE WOW, SO ACCOMPLISHED, I KNOW!
(NOTE THE SARCASM :D)
AND I SAW GRACEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
SHE'S TOO HARDWORKING LA.

ANYWAYWANYWAY.
LEUNGO AND I WENT TO PARKWAY AFTER THAT!
WALKED AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND.
DOING NOTHING , REALLY.
BUT I STILL HAD FUN! :D

AND TRIPLET OUTING'S TOMORROW,
THOUGH WE REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO.
AND MAYBE MAYBE WE'LL MEET UP AGAIN ON THURSDAY!

LOLOLOLOL.
I'M SEEING TOO MUCH OF LEUNG.
:D

MICHEAL BUBLE'S SONGS ARE TOO TOOOOO FUNNY LA!
THERE'S THIS SONG WHICH HAS KOM KOM KOM IN IT!
HAHAHAAHAHAAAAAAAAW.

AND,
GO GET YOUR SHREK EARS, TODAY!
IT MAKES YOU GAY AND HAPPYYYYYYYYY.
:D

LOVE,
LYNNETTE WITH THE SHREK EARS!

it's kinda silly how you make me smile just like
that.

it's over! why did i even panic so much ytd?!

and anyhow. i was tickled by the goodluck msges i received last night.
like the one that said MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU
and the two that said sleep early okay! even though the msges were sent pretty late.

LOLOL.

i think. the paper compared to the simulated papers were
ohsomuch easier!
thankgod.

:D

lunch with char jo and tock was hilarious.
the service at PARKWAY'S SWENSENS REALLY SUCKS.
take heed!

(:

at the end of the day, who wins?
honestly, i wanna know!
you've lost a lot. but you've gained a peace of mind havent you?
i've gained a lot. but i've lost my sanity.

tell me.
who got the better deal?

and, besides, the moment things seem to turn sour,
i know i'll run away.
i lack your grit!
perhaps i dont deserve it afterall.
from start to end, that's all it was.

a mistake.

and now,
i feel like 放声大哭-ing.
i dont know whyyyyyyyyyyy.

wl. it's just chinese Os.
i prolly won't use it in the end even!

i've read 20 over chinese passages today,
and i still feel damn SLOW understanding them.
my mind keeps drifting away
and away and away and away.

shucks, i'm distracted.
):

because i'm scared for more than just chinese.
because i'm terrified i cant hold on to what i've just gotten.
because i know the more i have, the more i can't afford to lose.
because, like i confessed when i was so delusionally feverish, i know i can't let go.
because every second i'm losing more and more of my mind.
because i feel like crying so often.
because chinese sucks.
because i dont know what i'm doing, ever.
because i dont know if this is working out.
because i dont know what's the stupid 格式 for 公函。
because a B, or worse C, would look horrendous on my Olvl cert.

i'm terrified.

i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared!

DDDD:

the past week has been kinda nice.
studied with the triplets on monday.
went home early on tuesday!
phy tuition on wednesday
chem tuition on thursday

macbeth on friday!
the play was not bad,
the porter part was HOHOHOHOHOHO funny!
lol. and some freaky thing happened to the chair after the scene of macbeth's feast!
=/

no amath on sat morning (((:
slept like a piggggggg.
studied with leung after piano!
that was nice (:
there was some weird storyteller guy at the library!
lol. the stories were kinda strangeeeeeeee.

didnt go for violin today!
stayed home to study chinese.
meaning, do mcq ONLY.
):
better than nothing?
haiya. i still dont feel prepared at all!

i'm scared i'm scared i'm scared!

:DDD

cotton wool is nice
dry
emotionless
because everything has been wrung out
from the life of a cotton plant
to lifeless, clean, but dead cotton wool
you're perfect in every way
its like
but you're drained of everything else you once had

remember?
:DDD

omgomgomg.
chinese Os tmr.

我很怕。）：

敏慧，加油！

i think,
i've proven my point.

i'm moving soooooooooooon.
and i'm sure you'll find me if you want to.

:D

GOODBYE.

heehee. studydate with triplets ytd was too much fun :D
with leung's ANGER,
my laughing fits,
and peiqi's obsession with speedos!

ROFLMAO.

(((((((((:

when running away becomes the strangest form of facing it.

:D

Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

ooooooooooh. (:

back to school tmr.
D:
it feels kinda long.

nvm.
tomorrow's a NEW day.

henceforth, i'll try to stop trying so hard.
i'm sure i can.
as long as i, er, put my mind to it.
yep. now it's your turn.

distractionONE!
chinese O's in ONE BLOODY WEEK.
omg.
i'm not ready. D:
study date with triplets after intensive chinese shit tmr.
i will do my chinese papers!
uhhuh.

distractionTWO!
my fucking headache really won't go away.
D:

followed leung's advice to sweat my fever out,
and it worked. ((:

fever's FINALLY gone.

my head feels clearer than it has for ages
and trust me,
it's a bad thing.

i'm heading for heartbreak.

i should stop scaring myself.

i'm fine. (:

i feel so so much better now, but the fever wont go down.
omg what's wrong with me!

and thankyou for entertaining me through my day and all the pain it brought.
seems like you're always there at my most vulnerable eh.
haha. feels strange that for once, you're the one nagging at me to take care intstead of the other way round.
i feel loved,
and i'm sure we'll make it through. :D

emath is STUPID.
D:
but my results for today are so heng la.
70 for physics, 65 for emath, 70 for mep.
PHEW.

THANK GOD FOR MEP. :DDDD
i hit my target for midyears
woohoo! (:

people marching to the drums,
everybody's having fun
to the sound of love.

maybe this sudden illness is my body's way of telling me to take a break and stop thinking.

trust me, the pain's a huge distraction.

emath's fucking disappointing.

thank god i had the common sense not to go for the vj thing last night.
came home and tried to sleep my stupid headache away,
but all i did for three hours was toss and turn and drift in and out of consciousness.
by the time i decided to go see a doctor, my temperature was 39 degrees i think.
my heart was racing through the night, and i still couldnt sleep. ):
woke up at 4.30 and my temperature was 40 degrees already.
haah, and i started being very high. or maybe i was just delirious.
and now my fever comes and goes randomly, my head hurts when i move and my heart is still racing.

thankyou mr immune system for deciding to crash on me now.
or maybe i brought it upon myself by sitting under the hotsun behind the classroom block for the whole of our extended recess!
OR maybe it's just fatigue, like therese said.
haiya whatever. i'm not putting in much effort into taking care of myself now.

i think i'm disappointed with physics.
waiting for emath now, the paper i've least confidence in. ):

dang i need my A2.

and VICKITSE, if you're reading this,
so what if i know it's a waste of time worrying for you hur. it doesnt mean i can stop caring you know. frankly, if this happened last year i wouldnt give two hoots about you. but now, i'm used to having your cheerful crazy self by my side. dont do this to me laaaaaaa. D:

i need a distraction.

FOURTEENTH MAY.
went back to heaven.
spent alot of time lying on the bed talking nonsense
watching 40-year-old virgin which was so...... M18. O.O
sitting in the ultra comfy couches listening to jokes
eating becca's, err, fruit cake?
viewing random friendster profiles
playing hide-and-seek!
...

today was nice. :D

however, knowing that this will be the last time i'll be meeting so many VWC-ers at once,
is not nice.

what else can i say.

sometimes, your heart just knows what your mind cant comprehend.

so i really dont know.

):

i'm not making sense again.
DAMN.

i just feel really really realllyyyyy sleepy. ):

and there's this nagging doubt
that you'll never be happy with me.
GET OVER IT, BITCH.
you won.
though, i do have something you'll never ever have.
serves you right.
ha.

fucking pms.

hmmmmmmmm.

today was a pretty exciting day!
clara's birthday! sharm and i gave her our pretty bottle of m&m's that we made eons ago.
BUT it broke.
ohwell, IT'S OKAY. (:

i do like sitting in the hall and getting back papers!
it's relaxing! heehee.
my tacky intro got quoted. *covers face*
and she spelt my name wrong too!
anyhows. english wasnt well done. ):
nvm.

mep! better than expected ((((((((:
yay. now i just have to pass practical!

legacy was so -.-
how come selection is needed for DSA hur!
still. i feel more motivated to DSA now!
yay yay.

flipped page for germmmmmmm after school.
mrs williams is so EWWWWWWWWW, WHAT'S HER PROBLEM.

met REBECCA on the way home. (((:
so we went to eat at Renaldo's!
:9

14th may is commmmiiiinnnnggg! :D

seven down, how many more?

DAMN, I MISS YOU LIKE HELL.
thing's arent changing,
noooooo. ):
HOW.
shit.

and mr thong's sunshine playground was so empty today. D:

i hate sitting in front la.
i think it makes yeoyeo pick on me MORE.
D:

school was CRAP. yuck.

peiqi and i 'motivated' leung to practice piano!
heheh. i love triplet time. ! :D
and we did silly things like FLYING A KITE IN THE CORRIDOR.
=/ in front of the camera somemore.
HAHA. who cares, yes.
and stupid joke telling time! -.-
then we went to parkway, for nothing really.
funny talk at KFC. haha.
and,

LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG LEUNG

maybe this will make you happy! HAHA.

and i'm terrified terrified somethings will never change,
not after the year of torture, the awkwardness, the everything.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

it's all over
:D

PHEW it's sucha relief (((((:

emath sucked.
chinese sucked more!

wl eh. all the papers were okay until stupid emath came along.
and i never have any hope chinese anyway.

practicals today were better than expected.
running notes for sonata in G had minimum breakdowns!
con affeto was very out of tune but concerto in A was one of my best plays!
BUT. ms ng kept ump chio-ing. ))))):
nevermind la. IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRR.

getting back papers on FRIDAY.
so exciting! (((:
and it also means, no PE.
DOUBLE YAY!

lunch with tock and joanni,
went shopping with them at vivo in the end!
wanted to get a mothers day present, but didnt succeed. ):
i love the PURPLE shirt i got though! ((((:
sat at starbucks with joanni while tocky went of shopping alone. =/
joanni's so fun to talk to ((((:
i wonder when we'll ever have the chance to go shopping again hur! ):

I REACHED HOME BEFORE SEVEN.
wow.

okay, back to school tmr!
))))))):

FOURTEENTH MAY, FOURTEENTH MAY!

oh and i met rebecca darling for icecream ytd. ((((((:
i loved the mango tangoooooooooo.
:9

damnit, it's not easy to face it square in the face.

it's DAY TWO,
after a year of denial.
i'll hang on, i promise.

granddaddy's 91st birthday dinner ytd was stony as usual.
i hate family gatherings with that side, honestly.
there are just some grudges i'll never forget.
but oho. i realised how mean we all are.
this bunch of children was running around the restaurant,
and they knocked down this big plastic wedding cake.
and all four tables occupied by my family stared at them and OHOR-ed until they ran away.
it was so funny i tell you.
xD

my flu is goneeeee. (:
more or less anyway.
last two papers tmr!
whooohooo!
but there's still the 2 practicals,
but really. who cares.
i alr have this gut feeling i screwed listening and harmony which is supposed to be my best paper. )))):
so yes. screw practical!
even though ms ong and luya chew seem to have more confidence in me than i have in myself.
hmmmmmmm that's a first.

i have forgotten everything about LOCI.
yong was a lousy teacher.
):

:D

Little Joanna's got big blue eyes
Coconut cream and coffee colored thighs
You could die lying in her arms
where castles are made of sand
We start to dance
But only the music is bleeding and crickets replace the band
She will always be my sunkissed trampoline,
She goes up and down in my heart,
Turned into jelly beans
And i'm starting to believe that danger's never near,
When Joanna is here.
Little Joanna's like a lazerbeam sky.
Her gluteus maximus like a firefly
And That's why i'm kissaphobic
Well cellulite dreams are made, like lemonade,
But when the shivers are salty and seafoam's the colour of space.
She will always be my sunkissed trampoline,
She goes up and down in my heart,
Turned into jelly beans
And i'm starting to believe that danger's never near,
When Joanna is here.
God, I love Joanna
But she don't understand much
I love it when our hands touch
Knowing that I'm near
Apple-flavored lip gloss
Gillies wear a necklace
Feeling young and reckless
When Joanna is here
Little Joanna's got big blue eyes
I could die lying in her arms
where castles are made of sand
We start to dance
But only the music is bleeding and crickets replace the band
She will always be my sunkissed trampoline,
She goes up and down in my heart,
Turned into jelly beans
And i'm starting to believe that danger's never near,
When Joanna is here

i'm addicted to this song thanks to leung. ((((((((((:
the lyrics are, oh so cute!

happyhappyhappy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEUNG!! ((:
i love you woman! <3
i couldnt have expected anything better. (((((: all the omg we're so screwed were just coverups right. i admit i was shocked to know you reciprocrate.but i'm too relieved. too relieved. (((: now we just have to wait and see how things go.
FOURTH MAY, 2007.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

i love the airport.

WHATEVER, physics, WHATEVER.
i'm gonna flunk physics tmr and everyone can laugh at me.
i've good reason to believe i'll flunk it la

firstly, i spent ten minutes, tops, flipping absentmindedly through my physics text. after that i just gave up and spent the next few hours trying to distract my self to no avail. )):
and leung, i'm sorryyyy if i was acting outwardly strange today
(because i certainly felt crazy in my head)
yes, i'll be fine!

secondly, the niners told me ms tee told them that the paper will be a killer.
so THERE.

and you know what. no matter how well i do for physics, johara will NEVER change her impression of me.
i know doing well for the subject is just for myself.
but i dont know why, i just want johara to be happy with me okay.
goodness, it's so random to feel that way.

TOMORROW.
what the hell, i just want to give you a big hug and tell you how much i love you.

my nose is sore from blowing it the whole day.
))):
was so distracted throughout geog paper cos my nose was so so watery la.
and i think i was noisy. =/

whoopdeedoo!
the papers so far have not been killers.
THANK GOODNESS.
and dontknowwho still said that midyears are going to be tough!

well, physics, maybe?

but whateverrrrrrrrrrr.
i'm so happy geog is over!
:D

i was so relieved that i didnt panic through amath.
((:

lit shit tmr.
yuck.
havent touched macbeth in 2 weeks.
still not touching it now.
if the does macbeth love lady macbeth question comes out,
i'm just gonna -.- at the paper.

you're one in a million,
you're once in a lifetime.
i wish i could rail at you for ignoring me,but i cant.because maybe that's what i'm doing too.but oh no, i'm not doing such a good job,i'mbreaking at the seams and i can feel it.everyday it's drawing nearer,it's scaring me like hell.it's either the beginning or the end.i dont want to have gone through this one plus week of torture for nothing.i cant afford to go back to square one.i've ripped off the bandaid,and it fucking hurts.so it better not be for nothing,
it cant.

While most people advocate optimism and everything, sometimes I still wonder whether it's better to be pessimistic and pleasantly surprised, or optimistic and crushingly disappointed.
stolen from thoughtexodus

sometimes, best friend, the way you write makes me think wayyyyy too much!
but thinking's good anyhow!
makes me feel less airhead-y.
:D

maybe i've been pessimistic and pleasantly surprised,
which is why life hasnt been disappointing me so much lately!
though i keep telling myself and the people around me to think positively,
i'm not exactly doing that am i?

why is it that i'm not convinced by the words that escape my lips anymore?

i know human geog's supposed to be easier,
but i just cant get it into my head!
omggggggggg.

i cant believe i feel more confident for physical geog,
though i have a feeling i wont remember a thing for it.

when i think of population my mind goes hopelessly blank.

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S THE POINT OF MEMORISING POINTLESS THINGS FOR GEOG.
WHYYYYYY DO WE HAVE TO LEARN ABOUT RIVERS HUR.
singapore river has waterfalls rapids and meanders MEH.

so what. the next time there's an earthquake we're supposed to go
'oh, i think faulting occured! maybe two continental plates built up alot of pressure between them so they eventually jerked free into new positions and at the same time released a lot of energy in the form of seismic waves which lead to the earthquake! yippee!'
isit?

stupid.

and i'm neglecting amth for geog.
D:

i tell you,
i'm screwed.

i swear my immune system hates geog and amth.
nose is running like tap
but at least throat has stopped hurting!

and last year,
KILLERRASH made me miss the geog and amth papers!

)):

i hateeee studying at home. )):

i've only done a pathetic 1/4 of an amth paper.
D:

at least i've gone through plate tech, rivers and coasts alr.
even though i dont think i can remember a thing!
*cries*

and i want my fifteen THIRTEEN points this term!

the ordinary man song is so nice ((:
crying date after midyears!
heehee. (:

an impasse, that's what we're in.